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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 05:42
Okay, well here it is. Apparently everyone thinks I'm crackers -- that's fine. You know... the whole aspartame thing along with other things I've tried.
Yesturday I took my measurements and in 2.5 - 3 weeks, I've GAINED 1 inch (maybe a bit more) around the waist. I'm TIRED of this crap. Everytime I try to make progress and lose some fat I go nowhere. At this point I don't know if I'm coming or going. After taking my measurements last night I tried to have supper.... I could hardly swallow the food. And after I managed to get some down, I thought I was going to be sick to my stomach. Why? For what? I've tried EVERYTHING and it doesn't work so screw it. I can't afford to be invariably depressed and frustrated for long periods of time. It's interfering with my school, with my work, with my personal life, etc. So..... no new spring wardrobe or new clothes. I hate the way my body looks so I'll stick with track pants and a sweatshirt -- so be it. I'm going to keep eating good foods because they make me feel good and doing the activities that I like to do -- running, karate, golf, skating, walking, blading, etc. To hell with the rest of it. If I want a donut, I'll have one. If I want some grapejuice I'll have some.... I'm tired of obssessing about weightloss to the point that I feel like ramming my head through a concrete wall -- it's not worth it. If I'm meant to be the centrefold for 'chunky asses' then fine. My new focus is school and getting my black belt. To hell with the rest.
Anyway, that is in fact my last rant. If anyone wants to chat, you can email me:
ms_luna_xxx@hotmail.com
I'm done with 'weightloss' -- it's just a living hell.
Take care all and good luck with your weightloss goals, I'm sure you'll all get there. And thanks again for all of the support, I really did appreciate it.
Luna
'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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Author: NancyB
Date: 03-04-04 06:27
Luna, you sell us all short when you accuse us of thinking you're crackers. You have received some opposition over what's causing you to not lose weight, but never any denigration. From what I've read in all the posts concerning you, everyone wishes you well and tries to help, even if you don't agree with the advice offered.
I personally wish you wouldn't quit the board because I've always enjoyed your postings, but if you feel it's time to move on I wish you all the best.
Maybe you have been worrying too much about weightloss and it's not good for your peace of mind. You're absolutely right when you say that you should focus on what makes you happy.
Good luck with the black belt.
NancyB
160-135-135
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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 07:01
Thanks, and incidentally, I didn't mean to 'accuse' everyone that they said I was crackers; what I meant is that it probably crossed some minds though. I mean really.... if I were on the outside looking in, the thought might cross my mind.
And of course, I'll still lurk and read, but I doubt I'll be doing daily postings.... my new focus is not weightloss, but rather my black belt and my education. To be honest, I feel happier already. I'm relieved.... I suppose that sounds odd, but that's the truth.
Thanks for posting, and for the warm wishes :))
Cheers,
Luna ;)
'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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Author: simply trying
Date: 03-04-04 07:16
I`m glad you are now focusing on getting your black belt...I think you hit it right on the nail when you said that perhaps you were obsessing too much on the weightloss...In the end if the lifestyle changes you are making don`t make you happy, are hard to keep up with or simply just stresses you out then they are not meant to be...The new focus on what makes you happy is what matters, and you may be surprise at the end results...One thing about karate , you`ll move forward and grow as a person....I wish you the best of luck...G
5` 4 and 3/4 inches
previous weightloss from 2002- 2003
jan 2002 --198 lbs/ down to 160 lbs
start losing weight again July 19th 2004
168 lbs/ 157 lbs / 145 lbs
inches lost from may 5th to-oct 2nd 2004=15.5in
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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 07:38
Thanks G :))) Nice to know that there is a fellow karateka on the board too :))
What style do you practice? I'm practicing Chito-Ryu. Presently, I'm 2nd Kyu (blue belt). So only brown and then I get to go for Shodan (black belt)!!! :)))))
Cheers,
Luna :)
'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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Author: simply trying
Date: 03-04-04 07:48
Jijutsu but now franchised and called north american freestyle because they are having more modern approacj to self defense....working my way to grading april 24th for green belt which is the the first intermediate belt...my kids are both grading for junior black belt before the end of the year....G
5` 4 and 3/4 inches
previous weightloss from 2002- 2003
jan 2002 --198 lbs/ down to 160 lbs
start losing weight again July 19th 2004
168 lbs/ 157 lbs / 145 lbs
inches lost from may 5th to-oct 2nd 2004=15.5in
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Author: Eric
Date: 03-04-04 07:52
Unfortunately, I love crackers. Especially graham crackers, and they are very much a part of my weight gain. Luna...you are less harmfull then graham crackers.
Eric
I intend to live forever.....So far so good!
272/ /188 1.5 lbs. this week. I dare not say till the cast comes off
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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 07:53
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'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 07:55
That's TERRIFIC!!! Keep up the great work!! Our style encompasses a lot of things, including some aikido techniques, some kung fu techniques and ninjitsu as well. It's a very old style -- linear, not at all like the circular styles. Very practical maneuvers though (and painful :P), and I'm enjoying every minute of it!!
Keep drinkin that water!
Cheers,
Luna :)
'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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Author: joan
Date: 03-04-04 07:58
Luna, you've made real progress!! You have now put weight loss and body size in perspective. You can eat sensibly, exercise when you want and focus on the more important things in your life; school, family, sports etc.
Choose a number of calories you are comfortable with FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE and stick with it. Then you can be comfortable with your diet and won't have to think about it all day, every day. If you want a donut or grape juice, just include it in your daily limit. A limit that is reasonable - go back to the calorie calculators, find out how many calories it would take to maintain a weight you would be comfortable with and let that be you daily limit - forever!
It sounds like your hobbies provide plenty of exercise - and enjoyment at the same time! So you really don't have to worry about getting enough exercise. I'll bet you are more active than a lot of us ever intend to be.
Decisions are liberating. It's the constant obsession and worry about a problem, any problem, that makes life hard. Work on accepting your body. Do you really think people, family etc. would not like you or want to enjoy your company because of the size of your body? Of course not. Time is passing by quickly, don't waste another day obsessing about weight and body size. There is too much of life out there to enjoy!
Joan
255/220/??
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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 08:06
Yeah but I had to buy a new gi :P.... hehe.... oh that was hard.... my 'old' gi was too ....arhmmm.... 'small' for me. I've grown.... in more than one way.
You know what, I don't worry bout calories. My daily intake per day from Monday to Friday is a bag of chopped veggies, one sandwhich, branflakes, one apple, a tea biscuit or half a sandwhich and a nice rounded supper of green veggies, with rice or baked potato with haddock, or turkey breast or chicken breast and 1.5 litres of water (whole day). I also enjoy a small piece of dark chocolate after supper. I've been doing that for months and staying between 1100 cals up to 1700 cals on a 'bad' day. I know that my maintenance is 2300 cals, so as long as I keep eating the way I am then I'm not overeating. Plus, I figure with all the exercise, I deserve a donut or a chocolate bar every now and then. I'm doing 4-6 hrs karate/week, 2 hrs running/week, I take the stairs at work every day (I'm on the fifth floor, so everyday I ascend and descend 4 times) and other misc recreational activity.
I know I'm doing what I should -- that's the beauty of it. Not only that, but I really enjoy it too.
And yes, the decision is very liberating. There are better things to focus on in life that weightloss. I've done all I can, and that's all I can do. It will either come off or it won't. If it does, I'll buy a new wardrobe, if it doesn't I'll keep wearing my old clothes. No biggy.
Cheers,
Luna :)
'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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Author: Fabulous@50
Date: 03-04-04 10:25
Luna,
Glad to hear you have finally moved away from your character of being a "stressed out dieter." That usually never works anyway.
You have decided to focus on healthy eating and exercise and accomplishing your goals--a very good thing.
The BIGGEST chink I see in your armor is this:
You say, "I hate the way my body looks so I'll stick with track pants and a sweatshirt -- so be it."
You definitely need to work on your feelings about your body. Your mind and your body are in constant state of rebellion and that is not conducive to good, overall health.
I wish you luck.
Fabulous@50
225/156/150
Program Start: May 12, 2003
“Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity. We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand - and melting like a snowflake.”
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Author: Luna
Date: 03-04-04 10:35
I know.... but I can't deal with that right now. I like the way certain parts of me look -- shoulders, upper abs, calves, upper arms, upper back, but as for waist, hips, buttocks and thighs.... I'm a mess, and I can't do anything about it, so I'm not going to try. I'm going to do the things I love to do and that's it. I'm not ready to accept that my ass and hips and legs are going to look like cottage cheese for the rest of my life. So, for now, I'm not going to think about it -- I'm going to put weightloss on the backbench and focus on the things I love to do like golf, karate and running. Maybe, with time, I'll either lose some weight (which would be great) or I won't; but right now, the thought of looking like I do now from waist to knees for the rest of my life makes me want to burst into tears. As I'm typing my eyes are all watery. I have a lot of strengths and weaknesses, and this is one of my weaknesses I suppose. I can't help that, it's part of who I am.
Cheers,
Luna
'Ichi Gon, Ni Soku, San Tan, Chi Riku' -- Higashi Sensei
'Be the water.' -- Bruce Lee
height: 5'5"
Goal: BsC w/ Hon. Major in Biology & My Shodan (black belt)
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